I grew up in a happy family without much problems or troubles. Through many different confirmations, I came to Brisbane last year to pursue my studies, and I knew it was God’s calling for me to be here. From the application of visa, everything went really well.

However, after I arrived in Brisbane, things started to go downhill back home. Being the eldest of three children, I felt terrible that I was not able to help and yet was contributing to the burden of the family. Feeling devastated, I prayed really hard every day but nothing seemed to be moving. I became frustrated with God, blaming God for sending me here at the wrong time. I became so impatient with God that I chose to make my own decisions. I was constantly worried for two whole months until one day while praying, I heard a gentle voice whispering in my ears, “Don’t worry!” I knew immediately that it was God, and I felt a peace in my heart. I started believing and having faith in Him again. It was difficult but I am glad I did, and things did start to get better.

Throughout that period, I learnt not to lean on my own understanding but His. It was not easy at all, but His love never fails (1 Corinthians 13:8). He never once gave up on me. I really learnt to rely on the grace of God because of my imperfections. It has been a humbling process, and something tells me that God is not done with me yet.

“And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him…” (Romans 8:28a) So many times last year, I asked God, “why am I going through this?” But I have learnt that no matter what happens, God is still good. When you cannot see what is ahead, that is when trust comes into play. Because when you can see, no trust is needed. God is gracious; He knew my limits, and most of the time He would later show me why He put me through the “refining fire”.

No matter how difficult or challenging our situations may be, God will never forsake us nor give up on us. Therefore, put your trust in Him and He will show you the way. He will help you.

Isaiah 41:13 (NKJV), “For I the Lord your God will hold your right hand, saying to you, Fear not; I will help you.”

Ranie Pang
Bachelor of Arts (Psychology)
Uni-Generation UQ 10, St Lucia Afternoon Service 

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