Personally I feel generosity is not one of my strengths. I do give my tithes, donations and serve in my lifegroup but I personally feel that I rarely go beyond what’s expected. Then I realised through talking with my leader and seeking God that it’s not so much about me and what I’ve given but of how our infinitely generous God has been to me. As Easter has just past I ponder upon this verse: Romans 8:32 “He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?”. Our God is indeed a mighty generous God.
One of the most significant times in my life when God provided for my need was when I received a kidney transplant in March 2014. For 4 years, I was on dialysis 3 times a week, a painful procedure where two large needles stayed inserted in my arm for 4 hours during which my blood would be cleaned of toxins. It was one of the hardest times of my life and I would sometimes go home crying from being so exhausted and sore from where the needles were. But at the same time, in my desperate need for Him I began experiencing the most precious blessings of a deeper intimacy with Him, of His deeper peace in immense anxiety, His joy in pain, His supernatural strength in weakness and the healing hand of a loving God. Even at the hardest times of my life God had showered me with His generosity. Therefore I am studying to become a counselor so that I can become a vessel in generously pouring out His joy, peace, healing and love to those trapped in suffering too.
In my one year of recovery from the transplant surgery, I am still learning to give more as my heart is overcome with gratefulness at the new found freedom and the fullness of life God given me. In His abundance of love and generosity in sacrificing himself on the cross, only one response comes to mind in the lyrics of a familiar song “What can I say? What can I do? but offer this heart oh God completely to you.” And in offering my heart completely to Him, I become more like Him, my heart resonates with His heart, and I overflow with gratefulness. I pray to have my heart continually broken for what breaks His and for my eyes to discern others’ needs, so that I can give generously through what He has given me.
I recently read a beautiful thought “When we love someone, giving becomes a natural response. “For God so loved the world that he GAVE his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”(John 3:16) In His overflowing abundance of love for us let our natural response be to give generously. For our God is indeed a mighty generous God!
UQ9, St Lucia Service
Diploma in Social Science