Coming over to Australia to study was a leap of faith as I had many uncertainties and fears before arriving here, and when I did, my worst fears came to pass. I did not have a clear blueprint of what I was going to do with this degree that I am pursuing. Nevertheless, I believed that God will make a way for me – according to a dream I had 8 years ago.
All these while, I was focused on my circumstances, my own strength, effort and understanding to make that dream come to pass. However, I realized how foolish I was when people asked me, “What is your plan after you graduate?” I could not give them an outright answer or a rough plan, because I kept my dream so close to my heart that only God knows. Distressed by my situation, my faith hit rock bottom and I started doubting myself for being here and trying to rationalize on my own understanding. I tried to overcome the obstacles with my own effort and limited understanding, but they all failed because I put my confidence in my own ability rather than in God’s gracious saving power.
Throughout the semester, I had this cry in my heart asking God to rescue me. Through facing my fears, God eventually brought me out of it without me putting in any conscious effort, and I knew I had experienced a supernatural breakthrough when I came back to Brisbane this year.
I just want to encourage you that there is a purpose behind everything we go through, and God will not waste any of our experiences. I wasted a lot of time and money when I was a youth, but I always believe that God can turn that which was meant for my destruction around for good. It is a lifelong process to become the person that God has called us to be. We need to trust in God’s sovereignty and His heart for us that He will not make us go through anything that is not for our good.
Matthew 5:3 (MSG) says, “You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.” I came to a point where I had to stop putting confidence in my own ways, but to look unto God, the holder of my future. I am convicted to share with you that whatever dreams you have deep down in your heart, bring them to God. It is He who can deliver us and set us free. He is our hope and confidence. You may not see a way out of your own difficulties, but God sees and He has already prepared a plan. Now, leaving my past behind, I am able to rebuild and lay my foundation once again in Christ.
Bachelor of Health Science (UQ)
Ipswich 1, Ipswich Service