I would like to share how God has transformed my life from one who was ignorant of His presence, to one who experiences His love, joy and peace.
My mother used to bring me to church every Sunday when I was young. However, I did not really know God personally or understand the gospel. Furthermore, I have failed to make the right choices on many occasions in life. One day, I had a big argument with my father while making the decision on which university to attend. I totally misunderstood his intentions for me, and I thought that he just wanted me to make a choice which he could be proud of before others, instead of genuinely caring for me. The hurt I felt from that incident caused me to hate my father, and because of that, I stopped attending church so that I would not feel guilty about it – which ultimately led me to exclude Jesus from my life.
From that time on, I felt as if I was living in a hell that I have created for myself. My life was filled with anger and despair and for twelve years, I lost the reason to live for in life. It seemed like nobody sincerely loved me, not even my father. I was desperate to find true love from people, but no one was able to fill the emptiness within my heart. After encountering numerous number of disappointments, I started to isolate myself from others. Over time, I decided to travel to Australia for a long holiday in hope to find peace in my mind and to forget all my past relationships and painful memories. However, I realized that without God, there was no way out.
About three months ago, God gave me an opportunity to turn back to Him. I desperately needed a job at that time. So I took the courage and whispered, “God, if You give me a job, I will go to church.” Looking back, it was truly ridiculous for me to do so. Thankfully, God did not only give me a job but also made me keep my word! He drew me closer to Him through my housemates who were strong believers. Indeed, God had prepared everything in advance to touch my life!
Now that I have accepted Jesus into my life, God has amazingly blessed me with many good things. At present, I have many reasons to live for: to experience His boundless love, perfect peace, and true freedom that come only from God! I know that I am worthy because the Holy Spirit lives in me. I have also learnt from Jesus’ command to love others, and have changed from cursing someone daily to praying for them. Furthermore, because I understand life on earth is only a temporary journey and my real home is heaven, it no longer matters whether I can earn more than others. I appreciate all that God has done for me. Today, I declare that I am a living testimony that God is truly alive. The following verses are confession from the bottom of my heart.
1 Timothy 1:15-17, “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen.”
Elevate W3, Willawong Service