I accepted Christ into my life few years ago. Tasted and experienced His great love as I walked with him. I Started to get more involved by serving in life group and in church, because I wanted to be used by God so others can experience His great love just like how I did. I told God that I will surrender all to Him and I am available to be used by Him.
Along the way as I get more involved, my time slowly started to be occupied by church and life group. God started to reveal to me, how my walk with Him has slowly changed, from the close and intimate father and daughter relationship, to a master and servant relationship where I am only focusing on things I am doing for God. My prayers slowly drifted from wanting to know more of the Father’s heart to the praying and wanting the things from God. My walk with God has slowly started to change, not his heart, but rather tiredly and endlessly doing of different things.
God has been gracious in revealing what a true surrendered heart means. It’s not what I can do for God, its not how much I can do for God, it’s not how filled up my time is with various activities, not what I sacrifice in order to do his works. A surrendered heart is just a heart fully for God, acknowledging that everything I have belong to Him and apart from Him, I’m able to do nothing.
It takes time and I’m still processing through what God has been teaching me in this season. One thing that made me in awe is knowing once again God showed me how much he cares for me as His child, he cares for His child’s being. He cares so much of having the personal relationship with me and relentlessly pursue after me, not giving up even at times as I got distracted or walk sideway. And God is always wanting to be involved in my life to transform this heart of mine.
John 15:15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.
Name: Xiu Myn Tong
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