I would like to share about how I experienced healing from God. I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome back in 2012. It is a hormonal disorder which cannot be cured while symptoms can be managed by medications. This syndrome has severely affected my physical and psychological health and also taken away my self-confidence. I still remember the day when the doctor told me that I had to live with this for the rest of my life, and there’s nothing much I can do about it. I consulted many doctors and tried many treatments that are available, but nothing seems to work.
I felt really hopeless, and I started to blame all the people around me. I often found myself crying, and all I wanted to do was to hide. I kept questioning God why I need to go through this. I felt like God had abandoned me because I was unworthy of love. I did not really open up about this to anyone because it reminds me of those times, but I thank God for my life group friends with whom I can share my struggles and deep thoughts on my situations. They encouraged me to pray and be thankful for what God has done in other parts of my life. They taught me God’s words and shared testimonies of how they encountered God’s love. I began to realise how God has always been a part of my life and that he has never left me. I then started to take a step back until I realised that I had been magnifying my condition all this time but never focused on the things that God has given to me.
Meanwhile, I received my ultrasound results, and my condition was starting to pick up on what seems to be a full recovery. God answered my prayers. Yet, it took four years for this miracle to happen. It was not an easy journey, there were times that I doubted His love and questioned why He was making me suffer from this. But it was still a rewarding journey, and even now, sometimes I still struggle with the symptoms and self-confidence, I learn to find peace in him. I truly thank God for putting me through this journey and helped me build my conviction in him. This continually reminds me of how unconditional his love is. He never abandons us, and instead, he knows exactly what we are going through in our lives.
Some of you may now be going through hard times and are in doubt of His love. Just really want to encourage you that God uses the waiting room to develop us and miracles do come through the waiting room. Let us hope for what we do not yet have and wait for it patiently. May I encourage you not to give up and continue to trust in him. There are times when what happened to us makes us doubt his love, but our circumstances are not an indicator of his love.
I would like to end my sharing with a verse from 2 Corinthians, it says ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. That is why for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.’
Bachelor of Pharmacy, QUT
UniGen QUT4, Hope Church St Lucia