Growing up in a Christian family, I’ve always heard the phrase “God will provide”. I personally never experienced this and the older I grew, I was convinced that my parents were wrong. As more challenges came my way, I even convinced myself that God wasn’t real and I had to do things myself to get my way.
When I came to Brisbane, I slowly learned to trust in God but I still couldn’t fully surrender my struggles to Him. As time passed and I spent more time building a relationship with Him, this became something that I wanted to grow in on my spiritual walk.
I don’t come from a very well-to-do family so my finance has always been a struggle for me. I was constantly worrying about not having enough for tomorrow. This caused me to be selfish in how I spent my money and made me wary in giving my tithes. It also made me envy the lifestyle that my friends had where they could travel to many places and money was not a constant worry for them. It wasn’t until I went to the Oceania Conference, 2018 when God challenged that I have unconsciously been worshipping money.
He made me realise that I placed so much value on a piece of paper that I didn’t put my trust in Him despite telling everyone that I love Him. I didn’t want money to control me any longer, so I decided that whatever amount of money I have now, I will use it for God instead of myself. Despite the fear of not having enoughfor tomorrow, I wanted to get pass that by not holding back in my tithes or using whatever little I have for His work.
Throughout this time, I never felt that I lacked anything, which made me believe that He does provide!
After a while, I found out that I received a scholarship from my university which really helps with lessening the burden on myself and my mother as well. After that, I truly believe what my parents have been telling me all along, God really does provide. I just have to get my priorities right and lay all my worries to Him.
Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own.”
Janelle Lahung Joseph
QUT Bachelor of Mass Communication
UNI-GEN QUT 2