In early December 2012, I found out that I had a cyst of the size 3.1 cm x 1.1 cm x 1.5 cm in my ovary. At the time, the doctor was not sure what type of cyst it was, and I was asked to come for check-ups every 3 months to see if there was any growth.
I felt rather calm with the news until the day came closer to the next ultrasound scan, where there was more consistent pain. It was then that fear started to creep into my heart – fear of hospital and operation. Since childhood, I had developed fear towards hospital visitations, and had seen the pain my family members went through.
During that period, I struggled to believe that God would heal me, even though by His grace I had prayed and witnessed God’s healing upon others, even a miraculous healing of anaemia 3 to 4 years back. At that time, I went and attended the Kingdom Invasion Conference in Singapore, and that day the topic was about God’s healing power. During the conference, God laid upon my heart a vision to be His vessel to pray for people whom I did not know, and to speak forth healing and His heart. It was then when I was reminded of God’s heart and love for everyone, and His love for me to heal me. I had to repent of my unbelieving heart and doubt.
When the day of the scan came, I took the step of faith with God backing me up, and went for the scan trusting that I was healed. This scan took much longer than the previous scan, and the lady who did the scan was lost as to what was going on. She told me in a questionable tone, “I can’t find anything?” She decided to scan my kidney to make sure that there was really nothing. Even till the point when the lady stopped scanning, she was still in questionable thoughts. Yet I knew my Heavenly Daddy had healed me miraculously. He knows me – my fears, my weaknesses – and He cares for me, for we are dearly loved by Him. All praise to God alone!
Psalm 139:1-6 (NLT), “O Lord, You have looked through me and have known me. You know when I sit down and when I get up. You understand my thoughts from far away. You look over my path and my lying down. You know all my ways very well. Even before I speak a word, O Lord, You know it all. You have closed me in from behind and in front. And You have laid Your hand upon me. All You know is too great for me. It is too much for me to understand.”
Se Ya Ong
Elevate S2, St Lucia Morning Service