I knew God since I was younger because I grew up in a Christian family and studied in Christian schools. But as a person with a lot of thoughts and doubts, it took me a long time to decide to get water baptized. It was only in the first year of my veterinary degree that I was finally convicted to get water baptized. I was on fire for God at that point but as I started to face difficulties and challenges in life, that fire slowly diminished. It got to the point where I considered “quitting” Christianity to pursue the lifestyle I wanted.
However, in my final semester, the stress and uncertainties of the future made me feel lost and overwhelmed. I began to ponder whether my previous understanding about life and God were an accurate representation of the truth. It was a very long time since I got lost in my journey of faith in Christ. I became desperate for the truth and started to wonder how real God actually is.
It soon led me to the decision of inviting God into my life again. I was still uncertain about my future, yet wanted to know Him once more, so I made my plea to God, “Where do you want me to go after graduation? If you want me to stay in Australia instead of returning to Hong Kong, please provide me with a job as I need to make a living. Wherever You call me to is fine. I just want to know You and grow more in You than before”.
Yet judging from my academic performance and interpersonal skills, I was not hopeful of things. But by the grace of God, I was offered a job in Toowoomba even before my final exams! I accepted the position immediately as I knew it was God’s answer to my prayer. Life did not miraculously become comfortable, I still experienced difficulties from my visa application to facing complicated cases at work. Yet I can testify that He always answered when I cried out to Him, He never abandoned me. I now wholeheartedly believe that He is real and powerful. And I can testify that He is a patient and gentle Father who waited for me to return to Him.
My encouragement to everyone who feels lost right now is that it is never too late to return to the Father regardless of how far you may have wandered. In Deuteronomy 4:29 it promises, “But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul”.
Gatton Life Group, Hope Church Gatton