Accepting Jesus has been the best decision in my life and I have never regretted it. However, it has been a journey of perseverance to get to a breakthrough. I grew up in a family with broken relationships. There was verbal and physical abuse in my family as a child, so I was growing up with inner hurt and wound. I especially hated my dad for the way he treated my mum and my family. Until I became a Christian, I could slowly start to forgive my dad and begin a healing process.
Becoming a Christian was only the first step. I was told not to attend church and lifegroup, and to stay at home instead. Yet it was not rewarding to stay at home on Sunday and Friday night whilst imagining how much I could learn about Jesus and experience God. I desperately wanted more of God, so I sneaked out of the house early to church on Sunday morning before my dad awaked. I did this for several months without him noticing. However, on a Sunday, my dad drove down the street and saw me walking to the bus stop. He immediately pulled over and threatened me to go home but I refused and persevered going to church. Then he told me there would be consequences when I got home. I was so scared but I still believed going to Church was the right thing and persevered. Dad was very angry when I back home and said a lot of hurtful words that day.
Since after that, I felt like I was in prison at home crying on Sundays and Fridays. However, God gave me strength to keep loving His church and provided avenues for me to continue following up on people, despite the physical barriers. God used me to encourage others through using social media and even used me to lead bible discussion through Skype, whilst I was stuck at home. Through these experiences, God showed me that He could still use us for His glory despite of challenges, we only need to persevere.
Fast forward to another year, my dad’s heart continued to soften slowly, gradually I started attending church and life group more. I really believe this happened through countless prayers and crying out to God on our knees.
Although my dad is still not fully accepting me going to church, I am thankful to God that I can at least attend on Sunday and Friday nights now. It is really by God’s miracle for a breakthrough. A breakthrough is still continuing and has been fought for relentlessly. All we can do is to trust God and persevere until we see the breakthrough. Therefore, do not lose heart if you are in a difficult situation, keep holding onto God and He will provide you the strength to persevere until a breakthrough.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10, “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”