I became a Christian when I was 14 years old. I am the youngest daughter grew up in a typical Chinese family with one elder brother, two elder sisters and one younger brother. Since young I knew my parents worked very hard because of the heavy financial burden of a big family. Therefore I rarely had quality time or good communication with my parents during my teenage years. Moreover, many times I received verbal abuse by mum and ignorance from dad because of not being able to live up to their expectations. All of these experiences brought a sense of unworthiness in me that I do not deserve to be loved. Later on, this mindset developed a strong sense of rejection and fear in me that restrained me from voicing out my opinion within my family.
Until I came to Australia to pursue my studies and dreams in 2009, I have experienced the abundant love of God. It strengthened me to overcome my fear and enlightened me of the importance and urgency of sharing the gospel. I joined the campus evangelism and kept my family salvation in my prayer since 2013. At first, I took a bold step to share the gospel to my family. I used every possible way to introduce Jesus to them. However, I received strong rejection from my parents; especially my dad, which then I stopped evangelizing to them.
In June 2017, I rushed back to Macau because my father was diagnosed with pneumonia disease and had to go through multiple treatments. He was bedridden and had to be transferred to multiple hospitals across Macau and China. At that point of time, I had a battle in my mind over this situation. At one side, I had a tremendous fear of sharing the gospel to my father who has different belief, mindset and all the reasons not to listen to what I say. On the other hand, I had the urge from the Holy Spirit telling me that If I was not going to share the gospel or pray for healing over my father, no one would ever do it. I prayed fervently to ask Jesus to strengthen me to overcome that fear of rejection. In the end, God’s love won and I overcame my fear. I brought Jesus into my father’s life as he proclaimed, “Jesus is my true Lord” on his sick bed. This event happened at the last verbal conversation I had with him before he went to the Lord on 1st August 2017.
Through all these experiences, I praise God for His grace and mercy to me and my dad. God enabled me to see further what is beyond the persecution. As the Bible says: “I must decrease and He must increase”, this wisdom and revelation give me strength to be persistence in the Great Commission. I am rejoicing so much with knowing that my father is on the same side with the King of Kings. I am so glad to know that I will get to see him again in heaven after my time has finished on this earth. The biblical principle of what you sow is what you reap stays true until today. Had I not sow the good seeds to my family; I couldn’t imagine what would happen.
Romans 8:18-21 New International Version (NIV)
Present Suffering and Future Glory
18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19 For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. 20 For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21 that[a] the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.
Master of Music
UQ7, St Lucia Afternoon Service