I have been a Christ follower for over a decade, however it is funny and humbling that the lessons God has been wanting to teach me time and time again is on trust. About 2.5 years ago, I made a career change from teaching to social work; it was an industry and field of study I knew nothing about. At that time, God closed every other door I was considering to pursue and after much prayer and counsel from my leaders, I quit my job to take on full-time studies. Although I knew for sure it was God inviting me to walk further in His plans, I remember the fear that gripped my heart as I considered my age, finances, family’s lack of support and uncertainties of the future. Eventually, I surrendered all my fears and concerns to God. I trusted that if He led me to this season in my life, He would surely see me through.
To be honest, I did not foresee or anticipate how tough this season would be when I stepped into it. During these 2.5 years, I learned and gained knowledge on different social theories, human psychology and frameworks to work with the most vulnerable groups of people in our society. My eyes were opened to the atrocities, brokenness and hopelessness that exist in our world. Even though most of what I have learnt developed in me a passion for social justice which goes hand in hand with God’s word. There were also incidences where I found my Christian beliefs and values, as well as my personal convictions, being thoroughly challenged and tested. As the semesters progressed, I found it harder to cope with the stress that came from my own unrealistic expectations; I felt the need to achieve good grades and to do my best as I firmly believed God called me into this. I also felt alone and discouraged when the relationships with my closest friends started falling apart. At the same time, I felt that I could not really reach out to my family as they did not support me with this decision in the first place. The stress and pressure became unbearable and started to take a toll on my body physically. God is faithful and trustworthy nonetheless!
Without a doubt, Jesus provided for and met my every need as He always has. Practically speaking, I was never in lack of finances nor worried about paying bills. I passed all my subjects and He led me to Mackay for my final social work placement. While I was in Mackay for 4 months away from home, family, friends and comfort, His providence and guidance were once again evident. I was led to the right accommodation and a church community where I was able to serve Him in ways I never imagined. God strategically placed people in my life that I now call friends and family away from home.
I asked myself many times, how could I have doubted God time and time again when I have continuously witnessed His goodness, faithfulness and power? I have learned that God is always interested in taking us deeper in our faith. He desires for us to become mature and not always remain as spiritual babies. I have also learned that these hardships and storms have brought me closer to my Heavenly Father, though I would have liked God to spare me the pain that came with it, I cannot deny the intimacy and growth I gained as a result. In the end, all glory belongs to God, and I seek to know and trust Him till the end.
Social Work Graduate
Elevate W4, Willawong Service