I was born in Malaysia in 1997 and was water baptised into the Anglican church as a baby. I moved to Brisbane at 5 years old and began attending a Methodist church. Yet it was not until January 2012 after the tragic passing of my grandmother that I felt the urgency to make a decision to seek God wholeheartedly. I did not mind going to church back then, but most of the time there was no meaning. I was just a church girl on Sunday, and prayed only when I needed something.
I started attending Ablaze Service since October 2012. In 2013, I went for my first Ablaze camp, which was also my very first church camp. It took me a while to sign up initially, because I have not had a good history with camps at school. At last, I registered with an expectant yet nervous heart. The days leading up to camp, I began to get excited, but it was not until Friday morning when everything changed. A sudden rush of emotions entered and I started to feel miserable. That soon led to tears. It kept coming but I had to get myself together because we had to leave for camp. However, my tears came back during dinner and I had to dismiss myself from the crowd. In fact, this constant cycle of crying continued throughout the night and onto the next day.
By Saturday afternoon, I was done. I was frustrated. Throughout all this, there was always one voice inside me saying, “If you were home, you wouldn’t feel like this.” Another voice would tell me, “Stay. This is happening because the enemy knows your weakness. He knows you dislike camps so he is trying to distract you from what God is about to do in your life.” It was like I was battling with myself, and as much as I wanted to keep fighting, I was just so tired of the state I was in. Deep down inside, I knew that I could exercise God’s given authority to take every thought, make it obedient to Christ and dismiss the thoughts in Jesus’ name, but at the time, I just did not have the energy.
However, one of the leaders explained to me that it really doesn’t take much, all you need to do is to demand the thought, or whatever it is, to get out in Jesus’ name. That was exactly what I did during the Saturday night session, and I began to worship like never before. When I went forward to pray for Ablaze, I took the microphone, not knowing what was going to come out of my mouth, but God spoke through me. It was a cleansing moment; God has won the battle for me!
From this experience, I have learnt to start my day off in faith and in prayer, to set a direction for the day or the enemy will set it for you. Every day is a gift from God. You can never get the day back, so don’t be average; rise up and fulfil His destiny for your life.
Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Bih Huey Soon
Grade 12, St Aidan’s Anglican Girls’ School
Voltage, Ablaze Service